Tonight, I opened the container of my mom's possessions that I brought along with me. As I lifted the lid, I was greeted by the fragrance of Japanese cherry blossom and the picture of her holding me as a baby. There were tears as I lay my head on the picture and stretched my arms … Continue reading Remember
Days 271-272
Day 271: Rethinking my decision from day 270 of walking instead of driving. While making a pros and cons list (at midnight after being awake for an hour or so... not sure what's going on with my sleep schedule), learn that a place with free easy parking is supposed to be open despite it being … Continue reading Days 271-272
Mementos
If they could see me now, what would my parents think? Would they be proud? Would they be worried? Would they be surprised? Or would they give a knowing smile? I've had a number of reminders of my parents. Before I headed out on the last leg of the 3-4 day drive here, I grabbed … Continue reading Mementos
On Radical Acceptance: An Addendum
In Meta-Beliefs, I wrote about how my therapist had introduced me to the concept of radical acceptance, how I questioned what acceptance even was, and my rejection of radical/absolute acceptance as I tried to understand it. During my trip, I decided that if radical acceptance were to be a thing, then radical acceptance had to … Continue reading On Radical Acceptance: An Addendum
Buddhism
Yes, I will criticize Buddhism too. To escape the suffering, it says, escape desire. But then the desire to escape desire, i.e. wanting to escape suffering, is a desire. So... that means that pinnacle of Buddhism is based on desire when it's meant to be a denouncement of desire. If Buddhism says not to give … Continue reading Buddhism
Meta-Beliefs 2
I will define belief to be the following: something thought to be true despite there being little to no evidence (or questionable evidence) to think that thing in particular is true; often unfalsifiable. Beliefs can offer an explanation. They can be an attempt to fill in the gaps of our knowledge and understanding. The beliefs … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs 2
Misanthropy
To me, misanthropy ticks the box of all-or-nothing thinking, one of those concepts that can perhaps be arrived at by inductive reasoning and lead to overgeneralizing. From a particular forum that I've perused, it seems to me that it can also be projection as people attribute the bad that they see in themselves to all … Continue reading Misanthropy
Meta-Beliefs
So titled as I explain my beliefs--that is, my opinions--about various beliefs. This was initially titled something else. I felt miffed today thinking about certain things so I decided to write about it. Here it is, along with the original title, Things That Can Annoy the Shit Out of Me and Why Certain Beliefs Law … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs
Simplicity
Moving here—I feel I enjoyed the journey more than I enjoy the destination. On the way here, I splurged a bit on the food and lived life at least a little during that time. Man... that food is nostalgic, like that crispy tofu sandwich or that burrito that I ordered and didn't realize would be … Continue reading Simplicity
Days 214-218
Day 214: Another anniversary. Day 215: Walking followed by exercise (swish swish) followed by more feet-aching walking (wonder if all this walking is sustainable, not wanting my body to fall apart (see day 205)) and then some productivity at home after trying again to learn what I'm doing. Day 216: Wake up stressing about the … Continue reading Days 214-218
