Insanity

I can have feelings/thoughts of cognitive dissonance surrounding therapy, when therapeutic approaches can seem so outer focused (how to help you cope with the world as it is) and I can feel I'd rather detach from the reality/world at large. Though it might be insightful to relate my experience to intersectionality, for example, I can … Continue reading Insanity →

Transmaterial

Envisioning Some people want to take over the world. I want to get away from it. A place where time doesn't matter. A world where you never have to wash anything. No laundry necessary. A world where you never have to take out any trash. A world where you never have to do any cleaning … Continue reading Transmaterial →

Candle-Lit Cake

Some time after writing my previous post, I actually started to feel good about being alive. I had a whim to get a bike. Even before I lived here, I thought about getting a bike to get around. But ever since being here, I'm still afraid of Running people over Being run over And also … Continue reading Candle-Lit Cake →

Pharts

Farts—are they a science or an art? Perhaps they're both. Two nights ago, after passing gas, I wondered why it would so often be silent. I found myself pondering the physics of farts. Yes, questioning farts. Question everything has been my motto, after all. "What makes a silent fart versus a non-silent fart?" I wondered … Continue reading Pharts →

On Radical Acceptance: An Addendum

In Meta-Beliefs, I wrote about how my therapist had introduced me to the concept of radical acceptance, how I questioned what acceptance even was, and my rejection of radical/absolute acceptance as I tried to understand it. During my trip, I decided that if radical acceptance were to be a thing, then radical acceptance had to … Continue reading On Radical Acceptance: An Addendum →

Meta-Beliefs 2

I will define belief to be the following: something thought to be true despite there being little to no evidence (or questionable evidence) to think that thing in particular is true; often unfalsifiable. Beliefs can offer an explanation. They can be an attempt to fill in the gaps of our knowledge and understanding. The beliefs … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs 2 →

Meta-Beliefs

So titled as I explain my beliefs--that is, my opinions--about various beliefs. This was initially titled something else. I felt miffed today thinking about certain things so I decided to write about it. Here it is, along with the original title, Things That Can Annoy the Shit Out of Me and Why Certain Beliefs Law … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs →

Growth

I recently told someone (i.e., my therapist) that when I thought of the word "growth," I thought of tumors and that growth was not always a good thing. Even without the tumor analogy, I haven't always had the best idea of "growth" with people left and right talking about "growth, growth, growth" in the context … Continue reading Growth →

Uncertainty

So maybe death is an illusion (an illusion in the sense of it not being the end that we think it can be) and maybe we're eternal, but of course these are just maybe's. Though many may speak with self-proclaimed certainty, how does one know that one knows? And then how does one know that … Continue reading Uncertainty →

Day 180

It can seem so difficult to get certain errands done around here. I ended up driving on a freeway (an infamous one) not realizing how far the place I wanted to go was and to no avail because I don't think it was open (I had to drive there to confirm because calling the number … Continue reading Day 180 →