Key-Phrase

All for One and One for All Something I recently said during a group session has been gnawing at me. In talking about the financial/money anxiety I frequently have even when I can be doing fine financially, I mentioned how my thoughts could turn to homelessness and the what-ifs of becoming so. I verbalized one … Continue reading Key-Phrase →

350

For the past four years, I've made a post on January 5. The first two were unintentionally on the same day. The third was intentional, and the fourth wasn't completely intentional. This post is intentional, and, fittingly, it's my three-hundred-fiftieth post. This post will be similar to 2023's post: a reflection of what happened since … Continue reading 350 →

Friendgredients

Trust Perhaps somewhat like a plant’s delicate stem, trust can be so easily broken and so difficult to repair. Protect it if it is given to you. Trust is fragile. Trust is sacred. Vulnerability Vulnerability—openness and honesty. It can follow from trust. If someone trusts you, they can feel more willing to be vulnerable with … Continue reading Friendgredients →

Eterni-phobia

I'd been avoidant of again listening to Purity Ring's song "Begin Again" (from their aptly named album Another Eternity). Because I don't always like the idea of eternity, of eternal recurrence. Of life (and thus the suffering—not only my own but others' too) continuing on and happening again and again and again. Of reliving life. … Continue reading Eterni-phobia →

Trans-Label

Last time, I was unable to put into words what transcendence was to me, so I thought about it. I think for me, it has more than one meaning: to go beyond my current, everyday confines, like when I speak of "transcendental experiences" in which I experience something mystical and/or some ultimate truth seems to … Continue reading Trans-Label →

Pharts

Farts—are they a science or an art? Perhaps they're both. Two nights ago, after passing gas, I wondered why it would so often be silent. I found myself pondering the physics of farts. Yes, questioning farts. Question everything has been my motto, after all. "What makes a silent fart versus a non-silent fart?" I wondered … Continue reading Pharts →

Polarized

It started with changing my name. First as a preferred name—which brought about anxiety, excitement, an emotional high—and then the process of making it a legal name. During that process, there were things brought to my attention, things that I'd had thoughts, even passing ones, of doing before. Given my new found situation within the … Continue reading Polarized →

Meta-Beliefs

So titled as I explain my beliefs--that is, my opinions--about various beliefs. This was initially titled something else. I felt miffed today thinking about certain things so I decided to write about it. Here it is, along with the original title, Things That Can Annoy the Shit Out of Me and Why Certain Beliefs Law … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs →

Goodbye: A Reflection

It's another anniversary. I wrote a post on the day it happened. In my post I said that I believed we could make it. We did make it. We were okay, my mom and I, until the end. Looking through her stuff today made me think of how I'd help her at her appointments. She … Continue reading Goodbye: A Reflection →

Uncertainty

So maybe death is an illusion (an illusion in the sense of it not being the end that we think it can be) and maybe we're eternal, but of course these are just maybe's. Though many may speak with self-proclaimed certainty, how does one know that one knows? And then how does one know that … Continue reading Uncertainty →