Insanity

I can have feelings/thoughts of cognitive dissonance surrounding therapy, when therapeutic approaches can seem so outer focused (how to help you cope with the world as it is) and I can feel I'd rather detach from the reality/world at large. Though it might be insightful to relate my experience to intersectionality, for example, I can … Continue reading Insanity →

Suffering

Just gonna post my therapy assignment here. I was given a question... and then I answered it. The existential crisis that I refer to started on day 294. Question How do I balance being a highly sensitive person with suffering? Answers Answer written during an existential crisis Near the beginning of the crisis Consider that … Continue reading Suffering →

Peas

Introduction I've found it undesirable to fit in with groups or to be like others. This came up in therapy once, and my therapist at the time assigned me a question to think about how I could still participate among others without losing my individuality. I ended up responding with an essay, thinking about this … Continue reading Peas →

02:41

Why am I sitting outside at two in the morning? Insomnia. Felt bothered or irritated as I thought about life. Questioning therapy. "It seems like you want to get better because you're like, 'Hey, I'm in therapy, I want to start to feel better,' correct?" I said yes but what does it mean "to get … Continue reading 02:41 →

Growth and Change

Isn't this enough? I made something creative. Someone is interested in it. They even have a copy. Isn't this enough? A grand presentation. Isn't this enough? I've come so far in life from several years ago. Isn't this enough? As I wrote the last sentence, I realized that perhaps it's not enough. It's not enough … Continue reading Growth and Change →

More than One Kind of Cookie

People might want you to believe that there is only one kind of cookie, but don't buy it--don't buy their cookies... unless you really want to. There are a variety of cookies, and one person's delicious could be another's vile. I tried someone's cookies. They had dark chocolate chunks in them. Sweet yet bitter. In … Continue reading More than One Kind of Cookie →