Introduction I've found it undesirable to fit in with groups or to be like others. This came up in therapy once, and my therapist at the time assigned me a question to think about how I could still participate among others without losing my individuality. I ended up responding with an essay, thinking about this … Continue reading Peas
Tag: perception
Shift
I said last October that maybe by this year I would have a decent job. A bajillion applications and a few failed interviews later and I wanted to give up, and I pretty much did eventually. Well, guess who's no longer in limbo land and has a part-time job now? From the comfort of my … Continue reading Shift
Peh
Premises What if my premises are wrong? Then my conclusion does not follow. Premises can consist of beliefs which can be fact-based or opinion-based. Facts are either right or wrong while opinions are neither right nor wrong. People can come to find that what they took to be true isn't true, or they could change … Continue reading Peh
Schism
In what I wrote the other day, I mentioned not wanting to actively achieve change. Currently, I don't like the idea of striving for change. I'm not necessarily trying to entirely prevent it either as change can happen on its own. It seems right now I'd rather go with the flow. Growth is a concept … Continue reading Schism
Loop
Content Warning: suicide, drug trip Summer Trip I last got high on a certain over-the-counter substance almost a year ago—August 10, 2020. I felt nostalgic of my past experiences with this substance. In addition, I was stuck in a pattern of thinking—much the same as I have been recently—and I wanted to "change" my mind. … Continue reading Loop
02:41
Why am I sitting outside at two in the morning? Insomnia. Felt bothered or irritated as I thought about life. Questioning therapy. "It seems like you want to get better because you're like, 'Hey, I'm in therapy, I want to start to feel better,' correct?" I said yes but what does it mean "to get … Continue reading 02:41
Slipknot
Lately I've been resistant and contrarian. I realize that my perspective is merely that–a perspective–yet I have difficulty being open to the contrary. I think it's at least partly because I think I have reached this perspective from logical conclusions. Perhaps I am afraid of letting go of what I consider to be logical. The … Continue reading Slipknot
Abstraction
An interface allows you to interact with an object without seeing its inner workings. Hiding an object's inner workings behind the wall of an interface is known as abstraction.Even though you don't necessarily know what's going on under the hood of a vehicle, you can still operate it by using the brake and gas pedals … Continue reading Abstraction
Problems
Maybe they don't really exist but in the human mind. Maybe humans merely perceive things to be problems when really there is no such thing.
Constructs
Seemingly, to be free, one must become enslaved. If one has no self-control, no discipline, then one may feel free to do what one pleases but can become slave to addictions and the undesirable consequences of actions. If one does have self-control, then one could see oneself as free of the consequences that would result … Continue reading Constructs
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