Meta-Meth

Being drawn to stories of hardship and resilience -- maybe we should think BEYOND this. Think beyond the hardships. Some contend that we are the author of our stories, that we (or perhaps even the "collective unconscious") compose the events -- that it's like enjoying tragic shows and horror movies. If we are the authors … Continue reading Meta-Meth →

Insanity

I can have feelings/thoughts of cognitive dissonance surrounding therapy, when therapeutic approaches can seem so outer focused (how to help you cope with the world as it is) and I can feel I'd rather detach from the reality/world at large. Though it might be insightful to relate my experience to intersectionality, for example, I can … Continue reading Insanity →

Transmaterial

Envisioning Some people want to take over the world. I want to get away from it. A place where time doesn't matter. A world where you never have to wash anything. No laundry necessary. A world where you never have to take out any trash. A world where you never have to do any cleaning … Continue reading Transmaterial →

Salvation

Salvation, damnation -- I could have made either choice in my last apartment. After one fateful trip, I'd come to the conclusion that choices poise alternate realities in which those choices have been implemented. Solutions already tried and failed. And then it seems we forget and so we end up trying the same things and … Continue reading Salvation →

Rift

Different/Splitting Off Last month, I wrote something I still resonate with: I've felt like I'm flying solo, like I don't relate to (as in "identify with") others. […] I can feel I don't relate to people's pastimes and interests. I questioned if this was like some form of insanity, if we were to define being … Continue reading Rift →

I Am

After eight years, it turns out I'd been right all along? In September 2016, I felt I finally had a word that explained the way that I was. I'd broken down in my therapist's office, wishing I was dead, and three days later, I told my dad to take me there again. Since I didn’t … Continue reading I Am →