Being drawn to stories of hardship and resilience -- maybe we should think BEYOND this. Think beyond the hardships. Some contend that we are the author of our stories, that we (or perhaps even the "collective unconscious") compose the events -- that it's like enjoying tragic shows and horror movies. If we are the authors … Continue reading Meta-Meth
Tag: life
Transmaterial
Envisioning Some people want to take over the world. I want to get away from it. A place where time doesn't matter. A world where you never have to wash anything. No laundry necessary. A world where you never have to take out any trash. A world where you never have to do any cleaning … Continue reading Transmaterial
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For the past four years, I've made a post on January 5. The first two were unintentionally on the same day. The third was intentional, and the fourth wasn't completely intentional. This post is intentional, and, fittingly, it's my three-hundred-fiftieth post. This post will be similar to 2023's post: a reflection of what happened since … Continue reading 350
Consider It
Yesterday I came home to find the stem of one of my sprouts snapped. It appeared that the leaves had gotten too heavy for the stem. I felt crushed; I thought it was essentially dead. See? I thought. This was why things shouldn't be brought into existence. I'd lamented before about the sprouts' sudden appearance, … Continue reading Consider It
Eterni-phobia
I'd been avoidant of again listening to Purity Ring's song "Begin Again" (from their aptly named album Another Eternity). Because I don't always like the idea of eternity, of eternal recurrence. Of life (and thus the suffering—not only my own but others' too) continuing on and happening again and again and again. Of reliving life. … Continue reading Eterni-phobia
Trans-Label
Last time, I was unable to put into words what transcendence was to me, so I thought about it. I think for me, it has more than one meaning: to go beyond my current, everyday confines, like when I speak of "transcendental experiences" in which I experience something mystical and/or some ultimate truth seems to … Continue reading Trans-Label
Us
Around the end of August/beginning of September, I'd gotten the idea of relating the spiritual idea of fragmentation to dissociative identity disorder (DID) after seeing Brina Ryce's YouTube post about their being diagnosed with DID. They were announcing the upcoming release of their book In the Beginning There Was Us. Their post reignited my interest … Continue reading Us
Candle-Lit Cake
Some time after writing my previous post, I actually started to feel good about being alive. I had a whim to get a bike. Even before I lived here, I thought about getting a bike to get around. But ever since being here, I'm still afraid of Running people over Being run over And also … Continue reading Candle-Lit Cake
Alive
The bathroom floor. That's where I've been sleeping and hanging out for the past few days/nights. It's somewhere to be alone, and an isolated space away from my cat whom I can feel can want and provide too much affection. First it was my mom and now it's the cat. On the next page is … Continue reading Alive
Chamomile Tea
Yesterday, I lay around for much of the day. I felt so tired and even napped two times. I thought maybe it was a combination of my lack of sleep the previous night and walking ten miles the previous day. Despite the extra sleep I got, though, I've felt tired and sleepy and I napped … Continue reading Chamomile Tea
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