2 5ths

Remember, remember the 5th of... January. In 2021, I made a blog post on January 5th, and in 2022 I made a related post on January 5th. I find it interesting how that occurred, so I'm doing so again, but this time intentionally. First, two years ago, I wrote the post Feariosity in which I … Continue reading 2 5ths →

Remember

Tonight, I opened the container of my mom's possessions that I brought along with me. As I lifted the lid, I was greeted by the fragrance of Japanese cherry blossom and the picture of her holding me as a baby. There were tears as I lay my head on the picture and stretched my arms … Continue reading Remember →

Mementos

If they could see me now, what would my parents think? Would they be proud? Would they be worried? Would they be surprised? Or would they give a knowing smile? I've had a number of reminders of my parents. Before I headed out on the last leg of the 3-4 day drive here, I grabbed … Continue reading Mementos →

Simplicity

Moving here—I feel I enjoyed the journey more than I enjoy the destination. On the way here, I splurged a bit on the food and lived life at least a little during that time. Man... that food is nostalgic, like that crispy tofu sandwich or that burrito that I ordered and didn't realize would be … Continue reading Simplicity →

Goodbye: A Reflection

It's another anniversary. I wrote a post on the day it happened. In my post I said that I believed we could make it. We did make it. We were okay, my mom and I, until the end. Looking through her stuff today made me think of how I'd help her at her appointments. She … Continue reading Goodbye: A Reflection →

Day 76: Alone

I felt alone today. It's 10pm and I currently feel alone. Earlier I felt I could handle it, but now it's like maybe the aloneness has morphed into anxiety? I fell asleep and woke up feeling this way. Perhaps I just need to preoccupy myself with something. Anxiety. Fear of... the future? I suppose I … Continue reading Day 76: Alone →