Pharts

Farts—are they a science or an art? Perhaps they're both. Two nights ago, after passing gas, I wondered why it would so often be silent. I found myself pondering the physics of farts. Yes, questioning farts. Question everything has been my motto, after all. "What makes a silent fart versus a non-silent fart?" I wondered … Continue reading Pharts →

Misanthropy

To me, misanthropy ticks the box of all-or-nothing thinking, one of those concepts that can perhaps be arrived at by inductive reasoning and lead to overgeneralizing. From a particular forum that I've perused, it seems to me that it can also be projection as people attribute the bad that they see in themselves to all … Continue reading Misanthropy →

Uncertainty

So maybe death is an illusion (an illusion in the sense of it not being the end that we think it can be) and maybe we're eternal, but of course these are just maybe's. Though many may speak with self-proclaimed certainty, how does one know that one knows? And then how does one know that … Continue reading Uncertainty →

Day 76: Alone

I felt alone today. It's 10pm and I currently feel alone. Earlier I felt I could handle it, but now it's like maybe the aloneness has morphed into anxiety? I fell asleep and woke up feeling this way. Perhaps I just need to preoccupy myself with something. Anxiety. Fear of... the future? I suppose I … Continue reading Day 76: Alone →

None of us asked to be here. None of us asked to want what we want. None of us asked to be this way. And here we are. What do we do about it?

Peas

Introduction I've found it undesirable to fit in with groups or to be like others. This came up in therapy once, and my therapist at the time assigned me a question to think about how I could still participate among others without losing my individuality. I ended up responding with an essay, thinking about this … Continue reading Peas →

Spinny Wheel of Existence

What if humans desire the feel-good things like meaning and connection merely because, in the past long ago, those that didn't desire or have those things died out? With lack of meaning, the ones who died out saw no reason to try to survive. Thus maybe the only reason we have this deep-seated need for … Continue reading Spinny Wheel of Existence →

Robots

What would it be like to be a robot? Perhaps simpler because not only do robots lack those complicated things called "emotions," but they're programmed, which means a relief from choices. But then humans are programmed too. Some people think TV can program you ("That's why they're called 'programs'" said one guy in the psych … Continue reading Robots →

Philosophical Thought Vomit: Wut Make A Hooman?

I was thinking that in a way, I am a different person with the same memories. I have the same memories as 14-year-old me but I'm made up of different cells—a whole new form but the same memories. I also have different perceptions of those memories. Then I realized, after recalling hysteresis and how present … Continue reading Philosophical Thought Vomit: Wut Make A Hooman? →

Growth and Change

Isn't this enough? I made something creative. Someone is interested in it. They even have a copy. Isn't this enough? A grand presentation. Isn't this enough? I've come so far in life from several years ago. Isn't this enough? As I wrote the last sentence, I realized that perhaps it's not enough. It's not enough … Continue reading Growth and Change →