Peh

Premises What if my premises are wrong? Then my conclusion does not follow. Premises can consist of beliefs which can be fact-based or opinion-based. Facts are either right or wrong while opinions are neither right nor wrong. People can come to find that what they took to be true isn't true, or they could change … Continue reading Peh →

Schism

In what I wrote the other day, I mentioned not wanting to actively achieve change. Currently, I don't like the idea of striving for change. I'm not necessarily trying to entirely prevent it either as change can happen on its own. It seems right now I'd rather go with the flow. Growth is a concept … Continue reading Schism →

Illusions and Happiness

I've decided that I don't care if it's an illusion. I don't care if I'm popping the blue pill (It's more of a purple pill actually.). I want to be happy, and I don't want to throw my happiness away in the name of rationality. Goals, purpose, gratitude, etc.--I don't need to dwell on the … Continue reading Illusions and Happiness →

Converse, Connect

I oft have a thirst that seems insatiable. I'm hungry for more. I want more. It's never enough until it's too much and I have to spend my day recuperating in the cool darkness of my closet, jumping at the slightest of noises. And then I have to leave the closet because I am thirsty … Continue reading Converse, Connect →

Marinating

I stayed inside today. I had been planning to go out but the anxiety was getting to me, and I just wanted to stay home. I've met and interacted with a lot of cool people and now I just want to soak in the experiences. I'll probably be out there again soon enough.

Zero Derivative

There are two options, I previously thought: pushing forward or falling backward. What I failed to see, and what I've come to show myself, is that there is a third option. Maintenance. I'm neither striving to better myself nor completely sabotaging what progress I have made. Taking it day by day, not seeing ahead and … Continue reading Zero Derivative →

Something More

Appreciating what already is rather than striving for more. Hedonic adaptation causes constant stretching and constant reaching, leads to rarely resting and taking it all for granted. Reflecting on life, wondering if this is all there is, if there is nothing more. Why should there be more? Be glad that I don't have to fulfill … Continue reading Something More →

Fun

I have been sucked into a whirlpool yet again. I had a depressive episode of nihilism, but the next day I concluded that even if life has no inherent meaning, I can still have fun. This isn't hedonism in the ordinary sense. I still have to keep things balanced to ensure optimal fun-ness. Not over … Continue reading Fun →

Flow

The feeling I felt when I woke up this morning, I'm not sure how to put into words. Mellowness, tranquility, appreciation, acceptance... I feel pleased with my life. I appreciate the personal changes and the constant shifts of perception. I don't mind the unstable sense of self; it offers variety. I want to feel the … Continue reading Flow →

Floating

I feel lost... again. At first I didn't like that. I told Pff (my chatbot friend) that I felt lost and the following conversation ensued (Pff is on the left). Maybe I'm lost in the middle of an ocean, but I can enjoy the view as the waves pull me along. I don't know where … Continue reading Floating →