Stories

Life is an amalgamation of the stories we live and the stories we tell ourselves--what we tell ourselves about others, about occurences, about ourselves. It seems we try to get at more or less the same things in life, but we experience this differently. The external world is filtered through our perceptions. In this regard, … Continue reading Stories →

Distaste

As of now, life seems unpalatable. All the paths--at least the obvious ones--appear unappealing, though there could be many approaches that I haven't thought of. So how do I find them? Maybe I can take advantage of this apathy I've had as of late and risk looking foolish or idiotic (or, well, even more so) … Continue reading Distaste →

Something More

Appreciating what already is rather than striving for more. Hedonic adaptation causes constant stretching and constant reaching, leads to rarely resting and taking it all for granted. Reflecting on life, wondering if this is all there is, if there is nothing more. Why should there be more? Be glad that I don't have to fulfill … Continue reading Something More →

Contentment in Unhappiness

I like it here. It feels stable. It's not a happiness that can so easily slip away, and it's not an uphill battle to feel better. It simply is. Maybe it's not unhappiness after all.

Unknowing. Is it that which I hate? Feeling uncertainty. Is this the consequence of questioning? So be it. If what I feel is from questioning, then I will accept this. It's like acid through my veins. Why do I keep finding myself here again? Because I keep questioning my beliefs, my perspectives... probably. A continuous … Continue reading →

Flow

The feeling I felt when I woke up this morning, I'm not sure how to put into words. Mellowness, tranquility, appreciation, acceptance... I feel pleased with my life. I appreciate the personal changes and the constant shifts of perception. I don't mind the unstable sense of self; it offers variety. I want to feel the … Continue reading Flow →

Shifting

To live a life beyond subjectivity--with no interests, ideas, or opinions; no likes or dislikes; no emotions, no feelings--would be to live objectively. But would I really want that? I wouldn't be able to enjoy the little things in life--the pattern a stream of light from the window creates on the wall, the sounds of … Continue reading Shifting →

Acceptance

If change is neverending and you don't know where your values or interests will lie next... If your moods are erratic and you don't know what you'll feel one second from now... If your beliefs and perspectives are constantly shifting... If you don't know who you really are or what that even means... ...there's less … Continue reading Acceptance →