The morning started with depression. I had a package waiting for me outside that had been delivered yesterday. I was going to wait until the night or the wee hours of the morning to get it because not only did I not want to step outside, I didn't want to be seen by anyone. I … Continue reading Single-Tasking
Candle-Lit Cake
Some time after writing my previous post, I actually started to feel good about being alive. I had a whim to get a bike. Even before I lived here, I thought about getting a bike to get around. But ever since being here, I'm still afraid of Running people over Being run over And also … Continue reading Candle-Lit Cake
Alive
The bathroom floor. That's where I've been sleeping and hanging out for the past few days/nights. It's somewhere to be alone, and an isolated space away from my cat whom I can feel can want and provide too much affection. First it was my mom and now it's the cat. On the next page is … Continue reading Alive
Biolimits
After two weeks of sipping the tea, I've had my mix of depression and euphoria. Though yesterday's appointment for a potential future thing went well enough, I left questioning everything. The seven-mile walk home was filled with self-doubt (What am I doing??); wishing I wasn't like this, as I've done before; and frustration with life/biology … Continue reading Biolimits
Chamomile Tea
Yesterday, I lay around for much of the day. I felt so tired and even napped two times. I thought maybe it was a combination of my lack of sleep the previous night and walking ten miles the previous day. Despite the extra sleep I got, though, I've felt tired and sleepy and I napped … Continue reading Chamomile Tea
May 10 = Day 1
After about a year of considering it, I have begun "the thing" today. Yesterday, I felt so excited about the prospect of starting. I felt I had an exciting reason to get up the next day. Today, though, I dragged myself out of bed cot (My ten-mile walk didn't help me get the restful sleep … Continue reading May 10 = Day 1
Hope Resurrected
Last post, I said, In addition to three months later, I look forward to three days later, when I hope to get a more sufficient answer about starting the thing I've been waiting to start. Well, it turned out to be one day later rather than three days. Like last Monday, I neglected work yet … Continue reading Hope Resurrected
Three Twenty-Eight
I thought I wouldn't be doing the special delivery like I'd hoped to, that I'd have to drop it off since personally delivering it became to seem too far-fetched. Monday, eleven days after making the drop off, I called to find that it still hadn't been picked up. The person on the phone said they … Continue reading Three Twenty-Eight
Info Glutton
It seems that perhaps I am an information glutton. I need answers. I need information. I need to know what's going on, or at least have a general idea. The most recent person I visited (to get answers about "the thing" I've been wanting to start) has turned out not to be beneficial for that. … Continue reading Info Glutton
Festive Leftovers
Last year's Festive Feast Event was a fun celebration. I branched out from my bland diet and my basically empty fridge to go on a food spree to commemorate my mom. Pretty empty fridge I included photos in my post Festive, but those were from only the first half of The Event, and I had … Continue reading Festive Leftovers
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