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Grounded
I can feel like I'm going crazy when it seems everyone else is acting as if nothing's happening, but I know where my priorities lie. I must stand firm and hold tight to what I find important and allow no one to tell me that it isn't important. People can be neglectful of others because … Continue reading Grounded
Quality/Quantity
Often times, quality can be better than quantity—when it comes to life for example. Why eek it out to 100 years if you can be fairly certain that you're going to live in agony when you could have a higher quality of life by living only half as long? I think in many cases, people … Continue reading Quality/Quantity
Frightened
Perhaps a bit of a strong word. Maybe I'm not frightened but apprehensive or simply scared. It's like I want to write about it, as I currently have no one to confide in about this concern, but I also don't want to, as though putting what's in my head into words will make it more … Continue reading Frightened
Peas
Introduction I've found it undesirable to fit in with groups or to be like others. This came up in therapy once, and my therapist at the time assigned me a question to think about how I could still participate among others without losing my individuality. I ended up responding with an essay, thinking about this … Continue reading Peas
Impostor
I can feel that I'm not good enough and that I don't know enough. I can think that others think I'm better than I am. I can also think that I'll be found out and revealed as the impostor that I can feel that I am. To avoid being exposed and also to try to … Continue reading Impostor
Shift
I said last October that maybe by this year I would have a decent job. A bajillion applications and a few failed interviews later and I wanted to give up, and I pretty much did eventually. Well, guess who's no longer in limbo land and has a part-time job now? From the comfort of my … Continue reading Shift
Existential University
Content Warning: suicide, substance use, self-harm Past Days I initially went to college because I thought that was just what I was supposed to do. That was the message I got during high school. A few years before I graduated high school, I would think about life and question existence, but the existential depression didn't … Continue reading Existential University
Peh
Premises What if my premises are wrong? Then my conclusion does not follow. Premises can consist of beliefs which can be fact-based or opinion-based. Facts are either right or wrong while opinions are neither right nor wrong. People can come to find that what they took to be true isn't true, or they could change … Continue reading Peh
Liminal II
Again I'm in the waiting room. Again I've passed the point of contentedly coasting and reached the point of wanting something to happen. Last time I left here for a master's degree because I felt I didn't know what else to do with myself. I want to do something*, but the vague opportunities require more … Continue reading Liminal II
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