Find myself unable to fall back asleep, after napping for an hour or two, until four in the morning. But have to wake up early for a meeting. Feel more confident for some reason. In the meeting, ask questions regardless of whether they might be considered stupid or not. On an errand, communicate with someone … Continue reading Day 14 →

Fail to sleep through the night, and at 2 AM, start freaking out that I might have contracted the plague. Feel weird—even under the influence—all day and not know why. For some moments, feel that the someone is there but also that I'm possibly imagining things. Feel that I don't have many regrets and eagerly … Continue reading Day 13 →

Decide to forgo the melatonin and end up awake until 2am looking through stuff. Spend much of the day outside. Fail again like yesterday to get the car unstuck from the mud but make good progress going through stuff. Think of a way that will potentially simplify the relocation process. Feel grateful that there are … Continue reading Day 12 →

Day 7: Make a little progress. So many pictures found. Pictures of the past make me wonder who I am. Day 8: Depression and procrastination continue. A lot of melatonin. Day 9: irritability, more procrastination, more melatonin Day 10: acquire remnants, make a little more progress, take a ton more melatonin Melatonin problem? What melatonin … Continue reading Days 7-11 →

Existential dread and hoping everything will just fall into place

Wash the piles of dishes

Donate

Make arrangements

Read, write, think, feel