Meta-Beliefs 2

I will define belief to be the following: something thought to be true despite there being little to no evidence (or questionable evidence) to think that thing in particular is true; often unfalsifiable. Beliefs can offer an explanation. They can be an attempt to fill in the gaps of our knowledge and understanding. The beliefs … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs 2 →

Misanthropy

To me, misanthropy ticks the box of all-or-nothing thinking, one of those concepts that can perhaps be arrived at by inductive reasoning and lead to overgeneralizing. From a particular forum that I've perused, it seems to me that it can also be projection as people attribute the bad that they see in themselves to all … Continue reading Misanthropy →

Meta-Beliefs

So titled as I explain my beliefs--that is, my opinions--about various beliefs. This was initially titled something else. I felt miffed today thinking about certain things so I decided to write about it. Here it is, along with the original title, Things That Can Annoy the Shit Out of Me and Why Certain Beliefs Law … Continue reading Meta-Beliefs →

Simplicity

Moving here—I feel I enjoyed the journey more than I enjoy the destination. On the way here, I splurged a bit on the food and lived life at least a little during that time. Man... that food is nostalgic, like that crispy tofu sandwich or that burrito that I ordered and didn't realize would be … Continue reading Simplicity →

Goodbye: A Reflection

It's another anniversary. I wrote a post on the day it happened. In my post I said that I believed we could make it. We did make it. We were okay, my mom and I, until the end. Looking through her stuff today made me think of how I'd help her at her appointments. She … Continue reading Goodbye: A Reflection →

Decay

I've felt for so long that once my parents were gone, I could finally end it. Now I'm here in this strange place alone, and I can feel that I want to be gone too. They're not here anymore so why should I even be here? I don't even know what I'm doing here, both … Continue reading Decay →

Growth

I recently told someone (i.e., my therapist) that when I thought of the word "growth," I thought of tumors and that growth was not always a good thing. Even without the tumor analogy, I haven't always had the best idea of "growth" with people left and right talking about "growth, growth, growth" in the context … Continue reading Growth →

Uncertainty

So maybe death is an illusion (an illusion in the sense of it not being the end that we think it can be) and maybe we're eternal, but of course these are just maybe's. Though many may speak with self-proclaimed certainty, how does one know that one knows? And then how does one know that … Continue reading Uncertainty →

Emergent

I'm scared. I'm scared of this change but I'm trying to do it anyway. It's moreso external obstacles than internal, because as soon as I'm over the external obstacles, it's all go from here. This can feel hard. And I can feel that I have so much to do on my own. I don't know … Continue reading Emergent →

Dying

My death wish—I am getting it. To reestablish myself over a thousand miles away in a place with hundreds of times as many people. Concerns abound, but at this rate... at this rate... Perhaps I really will feel like I am dying. The stress, the anxiety—like what can result from the realization that one might … Continue reading Dying →