Hope Resurrected

Last post, I said, In addition to three months later, I look forward to three days later, when I hope to get a more sufficient answer about starting the thing I've been waiting to start. Well, it turned out to be one day later rather than three days. Like last Monday, I neglected work yet … Continue reading Hope Resurrected →

Three Twenty-Eight

I thought I wouldn't be doing the special delivery like I'd hoped to, that I'd have to drop it off since personally delivering it became to seem too far-fetched. Monday, eleven days after making the drop off, I called to find that it still hadn't been picked up. The person on the phone said they … Continue reading Three Twenty-Eight →

Info Glutton

It seems that perhaps I am an information glutton. I need answers. I need information. I need to know what's going on, or at least have a general idea. The most recent person I visited (to get answers about "the thing" I've been wanting to start) has turned out not to be beneficial for that. … Continue reading Info Glutton →

Pharts

Farts—are they a science or an art? Perhaps they're both. Two nights ago, after passing gas, I wondered why it would so often be silent. I found myself pondering the physics of farts. Yes, questioning farts. Question everything has been my motto, after all. "What makes a silent fart versus a non-silent fart?" I wondered … Continue reading Pharts →

Mentorship

The writing I've been doing, and my recent therapy session, has me thinking about The Person (and also the mentor I've had) and what I think would be good for me. I've had insanely high expectations of myself in the past as well as criticizing my own abilities, which contributed to horrible mental health, and … Continue reading Mentorship →

Is-ness

Something I wrote yesterday to gather my thoughts: I thought about my mom today. I thought about her suffering. After she had died, I took her hand and told her I was sorry, sorry that she had seemingly gone out in pain when she'd said that was what she didn't want, that she was more … Continue reading Is-ness →

Move-iversary

Today I baked a cake. Why did I bake a cake? It's my one year anniversary since I moved here. To celebrate my name change As a celebration of the things (which are major) that I've been putting into motion since over three months ago (One of those things is supposed to happen in 3.5 … Continue reading Move-iversary →

Polarized

It started with changing my name. First as a preferred name—which brought about anxiety, excitement, an emotional high—and then the process of making it a legal name. During that process, there were things brought to my attention, things that I'd had thoughts, even passing ones, of doing before. Given my new found situation within the … Continue reading Polarized →

Professional Nouns

I'll let you guess whether I'm being figurative or literal (since I do hang out in my closet) whenever I say something related to coming out of or being in the closet. Driven Out of the Closet I've mentioned before how I began to explore my gender when I was around 15 years old. I … Continue reading Professional Nouns →

Resignation Letter

A future letter. May come off as ungrateful but this is how I feel. Dear The Person, This letter may come to you as a shock, but I want to inform you that I am resigning. I no longer wish to work for you. You said that you would take me with you wherever you … Continue reading Resignation Letter →