The sprouts are really sproutin'. I moved the taller one in the lid (as pictured here) to the jar. With the unexpected appearance of my newly acquired sprouts, I've had an idea in mind. One of the things that can get me about life is that organisms eat each other to sustain said life. This, to … Continue reading Synthesis →

I've mentioned making an interactive story (which I made with the visual novel engine Ren'Py). I had recently dabbled with Ren'py and thought I could use it as a way to convey my ideas, but I didn't have an idea for a full story. Then I got a therapy assignment to think of what reaching … Continue reading Actualized →

Before our session, I usually send my therapist an email of what I want them to know or what I want to discuss. Here is what I've included in one of those emails. Human In the last session, I agreed that I didn't want to be human, but something about that statement didn't seem quite … Continue reading Ultimate →

I stepped outside today. For a dental cleaning. After a couple of years since I last had one, I was finally getting it done. But then it didn't happen due to a staffing issue. And so I returned home feeling I had broken my "staying inside" streak for nothing. I scheduled one elsewhere, somewhere that … Continue reading Trans-Human →

I did it. Three hours of sleep, another day of work neglect, and several hours of attempts later, I finally managed to install the frigging operating system. I recently programmed an interactive story in which I mentioned envisioning myself alone with a computer or three, and, less than a week later, there I was with … Continue reading Self →

It's three a.m. and, for the past five hours, I'd been trying to install a new operating system (OS) on my old laptop. This is the most barebones OS I've ever tried to install, a lot of doing things I either haven't done in a while or have never done before, but I'm figuring it … Continue reading Wired →

My mundane but extraordinary accomplishments this week: I managed to order groceries after three to four weeks of struggling to do so existential dysphoria ("Ugh, having to feed myself SUCKS.") and just finding it easier and more preferable not to bother I got the inspection over with!! So, regarding the latter, I made it through … Continue reading Begending →