Day 78: Ambition might be fading, but at least I made some progress on things while it lasted.
Day 79: Watch anime.
Day 80: park. good project progress
Day 81: Binge watch an anime and have an existential crisis.
Day 82: Say hi again to depression and apathy. They’re not the worst they could be yet.
Day 83: A hope-restoring nap
Day 84: Feel that I don’t want to live in a world the likes of this one. Go on a trip to escape and also try to understand what acceptance means. Conclude that I reject acceptance.
Day 85: Wake up depressed. Want to find a quote of sorts to add to my “essay” about rejecting acceptance and end up reading through a journal of mine from eight years ago. Man, was I depressed then (even though I would say that I wasn’t because according to me it wasn’t depression; it was realism).
Feel sad and alone but don’t feel bad about it and realize what I’m doing is… acceptance.
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